It was somewhere about 14. And at that time have found out that I'm in scat, too (but this is a story from another book).
I suppose, everyone knows that feeling when you fell yourself alone with your interests (especially in such intolerant to LGBT country as Russia). I felt so. But soon I have realized that I am not and there are a lot of people in my city who have the same problems as I do (humiliating and hating and so on).
I thought in different times (now I am 19) that I am pan- and homosexual. But now I realize that I am bisexual, but men attracting me more.
Thanks for your attention