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« on: March 26, 2018, 11:37:24 pm »

https://forum.gaytorrent.ru/index.php?topic=56038

I hate being gay
I hate being black
I hate being feminine
I hate how nobody loves me.

I don't have anybody to turn to. At all.

I feel porn is all I have, and porn is good. It is. But I wish I had a boyfriend.

I feel like I'm never gonna be happy.

I'm' 27 and I've never had a boyfriend and I'm just getting impatient.

Ugh.

I'm really thinking of suicide or similar and worse things.
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« Reply #1 on: March 26, 2018, 11:57:22 pm »

I live in the Los Angeles area and I'm very upset.

I want a boyfriend and a guy that loves me.

Being gay sucks.
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« Reply #2 on: March 27, 2018, 01:11:07 am »

I just fucking want to die. I hate being black and gay, and being attracted to a gay culture and men who don't like me. So much racism and homophobia.
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« Reply #3 on: March 27, 2018, 06:37:30 am »

dude, change yourself kill yourselves can not solve your problem. that make you like a coward, i think you are not the one.if you don’t like something and you have abilities, change it, you don’t like your voice try to practice pronunciation from back tongue,if you don’t like your homosexual try to kill all of the connections from it, and then go to a new place start a new life you wanted. your mind must under your control, sometimes you need courage to do the “strange thing” but most time you need patients, change your self need time. you are very young. hope you have a better tomorrow. living like a man.
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« Reply #4 on: March 27, 2018, 10:41:40 am »

The farther you are from "normal", the harder it will be to find someone unless you are in a circle of like-minded people.   

How likely do you think it is to find a couple of; a BDSM fanatic and a person who faints at the very thought of even the tiniest amount of pain. 
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« Reply #5 on: March 27, 2018, 03:56:36 pm »

I live in the Los Angeles area and I'm very upset.

I want a boyfriend and a guy that loves me.

Being gay sucks.

I know that you're upset, but killing yourself won't solve anything. You'll find people who value you for you; you just have to patient. Have you considered getting therapy?
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« Reply #6 on: March 29, 2018, 01:55:03 am »

I live in the Los Angeles area and I'm very upset.

I want a boyfriend and a guy that loves me.

Being gay sucks.

I know that you're upset, but killing yourself won't solve anything. You'll find people who value you for you; you just have to patient. Have you considered getting therapy?

I have. But I still want a fucking boyfriend, and hate being gay. That's not gonna solve that shit or that category.

I am mentally ill if that's what you're trying to say.

I'm diagnosed bipolar and I'm autistic.
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« Reply #7 on: March 29, 2018, 01:59:15 am »

Downvoting my posts and shit. Fuck. I hate being gay. I gave myself a couple days to think it over, and I feel like worse, and my mind is fucking made up.
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« Reply #8 on: March 29, 2018, 11:46:05 am »

I think you should find a (ghey) friend first  with love but that's not easy either who am I kidding  Crazy?
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« Reply #9 on: March 30, 2018, 01:23:21 am »

The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.
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« Reply #10 on: March 30, 2018, 04:49:03 am »

The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.

How dare you say that. A boyfriend will help. I want a man.

You can't change being gay.

I'm not changing myself.

I want a boyfriend. So all of that is bullshit.
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« Reply #11 on: March 30, 2018, 06:16:59 am »

in my experience, one does not simply "get a boyfriend"

you need to be friends first at the least. so go make some gay friends and see where that goes Wink

if you end up with a guy with who u share nothing in common other than being homos, i promise you: it will be miserable and you might aswell just go for a grindr bump or something. presumably that's not what you want.

as an aspie i can relate maybe that making friends isn't so easy, let alone somone to be comfortable enough with to actually open up a real relationship.

more importantly: learn to love yourself man... if you can't love yourself how can you expect someone else to?

that very self-love/confidence is a pretty big attractive force. if you shine (in the right places) they will come. just own yourself.

you say you hate yourself, you hate being gay, but don't want to change. there is here a contradiction! at least one of these is not true.

PS: this is probably not the best place to look for love Tongue
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« Reply #12 on: March 31, 2018, 06:49:16 am »

in my experience, one does not simply "get a boyfriend"

you need to be friends first at the least. so go make some gay friends and see where that goes Wink

if you end up with a guy with who u share nothing in common other than being homos, i promise you: it will be miserable and you might aswell just go for a grindr bump or something. presumably that's not what you want.

as an aspie i can relate maybe that making friends isn't so easy, let alone somone to be comfortable enough with to actually open up a real relationship.

more importantly: learn to love yourself man... if you can't love yourself how can you expect someone else to?

that very self-love/confidence is a pretty big attractive force. if you shine (in the right places) they will come. just own yourself.

you say you hate yourself, you hate being gay, but don't want to change. there is here a contradiction! at least one of these is not true.

PS: this is probably not the best place to look for love Tongue

I don't want friends. From minute and second one I look at him, he's mine and he's my man, and he's gonna be my man in my life.


Fuck that. I love opposite men. If he's not a racist asshole (even then. If he loves me. he can be racist lol) then I don't care.

I'm sorry. I'm just banned from every other gay site for being black and gay, so where the fuck else can I go?
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« Reply #13 on: March 31, 2018, 09:31:39 am »

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I'm sorry. I'm just banned from every other gay site for being black and gay, so where the fuck else can I go?

What sites ban you for that? 

Maybe you're banned for another reason?   
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« Reply #14 on: March 31, 2018, 08:54:36 pm »

The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.

Are you taking notes,  Domosuke? First of all, there's nothing wrong with being black, gay, or autistic. You are a human being. Your conditions (and I don't believe in mental "illnesses") are what make you YOU. Own it. We live in a time where you can get almost anything you want with the least bit of effort. Btw there are LOTS of ways to get a boyfriend or maybe a fuckbud, which I swear can be just as good. Use the Internet, go out to bars/clubs, try Grindr..
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« Reply #15 on: April 01, 2018, 12:24:06 am »

The truth is - having a boyfriend won't fix your life.
If you hate being gay - be straight.
If you don't feel straight - accept being gay.
If you're unhappy - you'll still be unhappy but in a relationship.
Believe me. This is how it works.
So find a meaning, find a hobby reorganise yourself.
If you don't like something in you - change it.
If you hate being feminine - don't be.
Start gaining mass, go to the gym, put up a little muscle.
When you'll accept yourself - then it will be time to find a boyfriend.


Are you taking notes,  Domosuke? First of all, there's nothing wrong with being black, gay, or autistic. You are a human being. Your conditions (and I don't believe in mental "illnesses") are what make you YOU. Own it. We live in a time where you can get almost anything you want with the least bit of effort. Btw there are LOTS of ways to get a boyfriend or maybe a fuckbud, which I swear can be just as good. Use the Internet, go out to bars/clubs, try Grindr..

No I'm not taking notes. He's an asshole, and fuck him.

He's telling me not to be myself.

I don't like bars and clubs. I just had a bad experience last night at one.

I just want a fucking boyfriend, and I have so many crushes on straight guys and asshole gay guys who don't want me.

I just think it's time to die. I'm sorry. Fuck.
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« Reply #16 on: April 01, 2018, 12:33:39 am »

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I'm sorry. I'm just banned from every other gay site for being black and gay, so where the fuck else can I go?

What sites ban you for that? 

Maybe you're banned for another reason?   

I don't want to list names, as I don't think I'm allowed to. But yes, I was banned for being black and gay.
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« Reply #17 on: April 01, 2018, 01:24:47 am »

Sorry to hear you're so depressed. Maybe a change in medication can help if you're taking a prescription? That might help you see the world differently, more positively, and may attract more of they sort of guys you like to you. Please forget about suicide, things can get better for you at any moment. There's someone out there for you, believe that! I don't know what kind of guys you like, or where to tell you to look, maybe a group/club of guys who share similar interests if you haven't tried that yet?
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« Reply #18 on: April 01, 2018, 01:51:33 am »

Sorry to hear you're so depressed. Maybe a change in medication can help if you're taking a prescription? That might help you see the world differently, more positively, and may attract more of they sort of guys you like to you. Please forget about suicide, things can get better for you at any moment. There's someone out there for you, believe that! I don't know what kind of guys you like, or where to tell you to look, maybe a group/club of guys who share similar interests if you haven't tried that yet?


I don't take medication, and I don't want to. That's my choice.

Well I like opposite guys, as you could tell from another thread I posted. With for some reason Jewish and Russian men I find the most appealing really.
https://forum.gaytorrent.ru/index.php?topic=55895.0

I'm just trying it really hard to stay motivated and happy.

I like opposite men.

I have hobbies, which is hip hop dancing, breakdancing and doing gymnastics and I like hip hop and disco and urban music, but I don't want men in those hobbies.

I want opposite guys.

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« Reply #19 on: April 01, 2018, 09:34:27 pm »

Fuck.
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