The way you describe it, sex sound like a compulsion or even onerous, I don't like it. I don't need to have sex just to have sex, only to compensate for future days.
If there is genuine attraction by both parties then everything is cool, have fun and enjoy it without constrains
I am 35, and I am quite overweight... there is a proportianiolity regarding older men and oversized men
I don't like it either. But age and biology waits for no men.
I'm shy to say that my libido is obviously going down.
Now I only need sex once a week. The worse part is that it takes a long time for me to get hard. I feel the need to release in my balls yet I don't have the same sexual strength in my cock. Sometimes porn and sex toys helped, sometimes they don't and I felt unfinished even though I managed to cum.
It's like when some people complain that they feel like they've peed but still feel unfinished.
I had to do what I normally won't like to do. There's a known cruising park many miles away and is known for truck drivers rest and recreation. Fortunately for me, I'm still in good shape and don't show my age yet. It didn't take long before I hooked up with one. To feel his virility was a pleasure and he drained me well that made my balls ache after.
I used to say that I'm versatile. But now I'm not good enough to top. The fact that he could fuck the hell out of me, now I'm resigned to be a bottom. I'm not risking my health by taking Viagra.
What I'm afraid is that sex is too easy if you're willing to put out. These truck drivers are raunchy and in need of quick release. I hate to be addicted to easy sex.
I tried not to think about it. Every few weeks that incomplete feelings in my balls just too bothering my daily life. For that I had to drive 1 hour to get relief.
I tried the apps but in small town, there are few and they're mostly regulars. Sad to say, I hooked up with one and he wanted me to be the top. I tried but even after his oral to help me get hard, I was not hard enough to penetrate and got soft. That ended with silent embarrassment.
It was even more embarrassment when he bumped into me at the cruising park. I was stark naked with a truck driver in a secluded spot. Apparently, it is a favorite spot for consummation for its seclusion. It's a small world after all.